Oh man. It’s been a rough few days. Suddenly, this not running thing is hitting me very hard.
I mean, I admit that if you read my posts from the past 6 weeks or so, I’ve probably mentioned in every single one that PF sucks, not running is the worst, blah blah blah.
But for some reason the past few days have felt really extra horrible because of not running and today, I’m feeling totally blue. I actually cried at my desk at work. (OMG, I am a tool. I admit it. I’m ashamed.)
One of my wonderful friends very astutely pointed out that initially, I was distracted with the holidays/travel, then moving, then adjusting to co-habitating. In other words, I had plenty of things to focus on instead of dwelling on my bum-a$$ foot. But now, it’s consuming me. (Cue the violins!)
Though I am fairly loath to emo-ing out too much here on the blog, I’m hoping that maybe venting a bit will make me feel a little better? Maybe?
Anyhow, the status of the foot remains the same. I have not run AT ALL in 2 weeks. I had been running, albeit very little, since the PF diagnosis. Nothing more than twice a week, and just a 5 miler here and a 4 miler there (with the exception of the Ted Corbitt 15K.) However, 2 weeks ago when I admitted to myself that my foot was not getting better at all, I thought maybe I should wisen up and drop the running completely for a bit.
There has been no change in my foot that I can see.
I also went to Physical Therapy twice last week and am going again tonight. I was feeling really positive about it. I thought my foot was getting better. But then, the pain returned, and remained. I’ve been doing the exercises at home like I’m supposed to. I’m still wearing arch supporting inserts in every single piece of footwear that I’ve had on. I’M EVEN SLEEPING IN THE MOTHER EFFING BOOT.
While going through and clearing out my bookmarked websites on my computer today and came across this link, and I actually felt an ACHE for that day. I remember it was a lovely spring day, just a touch of a chill in the air. It was my first time running with Ali, and it was really fun!
So then I started thinking, “OMG what if springtime comes and I’m still not running?” I really think I might lose it if the dreadful winter months pass, springtime arrives, and I’m still burdened with this effing PF.
OK, I need to chill. This is certainly not the end of the world. I need to stop being a little b*tch. It HAS to get better, and until then, I need to woman up.
In happier news, I saw a great play last night on Broadway. I definitely recommend Stick Fly (produced by Alicia Keys.) The cast as a whole is pretty fantastic, but the bright spot in it for me was Condola Rashad, who is Felicia Rashad (Claire Huxtable!)’s daughter. I was inclined to assume some theatre nepotism was going on there with casting her fresh out of college, but she is actually a real talent. I hope she wins a Tony!
Also, NYRR decided to make the Manhattan Half a fun run, so I wound up getting a point for it, even though I didn’t run it because of… well… you know. Anyway, whatever, yippee. I would have rather run the freaking thing in the snow than have this crap injury, but I’ll take this little gift anyway. One 2012 race down, 8 to go. Hoping I can put a dent in those 8 sooner rather than later! (And, to be clear, I hope to do that by actually RUNNING THEM.) FINGERS CROSSED!