8:00 and “I Can’t”

13 Dec

So, I am generally a pretty positive person, but every now and then, I pull an Uncle Frank (You be positive, I’ll be realistic!)

My favorite Christmas movie.  Anyone?

My favorite Christmas movie. Anyone?

This has been happening a lot lately.  On my MGP runs, on my tempo runs, on my Yassos… pretty much on any run that is not a prescribed “easy run,” I find myself saying in my head, I can’t.  Then I quickly attempt to demolish that thought with, Shut up, you a**hole, of course you can.  Not exactly the most positive way to recover from negative thoughts…

So… my MGP (Marathon Goal Pace) is 8 minute miles.  This is a lofty goal for me.  For my first 2 marathons, I didn’t even have a Garmin, and for the following 5, I only used it for training runs so I knew my distance– I never paid attention to my pace at ALL.  But it was generally pretty slow.  Then, when I finally started paying attention and giving a shit, I was happy with any mile that began with an “8,” even if it was 8:59.

Sometimes I miss those days of blissful ignorance…

But I will say it’s been gratifying to improve with hard work.  This morning, I ran 10 miles with 8 of them at MGP.  I started getting inside of my head about halfway through the run:  What are you thinking?  You can’t run 26.2 8-minute miles!  You are struggling with 8 miles at this pace!  (I actually wasn’t, it just didn’t feel “easy,” but when does running ever feel completely effortless?)  And anyway, I didn’t think I could ever, EVER run a sub 4:00 marathon.  Much less a sub-3:40 marathon.  Maybe I should try believing in myself a bit more?

This week is a big one for me.  I’ll be running a total of 59 miles, which will be the most I’ve ever run in a week.  (I really don’t know how some of you people do MsPW well into the 60s, 70s,and even 80s…)  Next week I’ll run 60.  I really want and need to stay focused and positive.  Uncle Frank, go f*ck yourself!

Obligatory running recap:

Mon 12/3 — 45 mins Flywheel, then 4 easy miles

Tues 12/4 — 8 mi tempo (middle miles around 7:30 pace)

Weds 12/5 — 5 mi with strides

Thurs 12/6 — 9 mi with 7 @ MGP

Fri 12/7 — rest

Sat 12/8 — 20 mi.  Started at home, ran over the Q’boro Bridge, down Manhattan to the BK Bridge, over the Bridge, got a little lost, found my way, ran to Prospect Park, ran the Jingle Bell Jog (slow as hell and I also just barely made it to the start before they took the mats up), then ran to the Barclays Center and got on the train.  Ave pace was 8:55 with my fastest mile being mile 18 (8:15) and my slowest being mile 20 (9:48; I had pretty much thrown in the towel by then + had to stop at a lot of traffic lights.)

Sun 12/9 — 5 mi easy

Mon 12/10 — 6 mi easy

Tues 12/11 — 9 mi including 6 Yasso 800s

Weds 12/12 — much-needed rest day

today — 10 mi with 8 at MGP

tomorrow — 22 mi (eek!) This will be the most I’ve ever run at one time during a marathon training cycle…

Other stuff:

-I finally met Josie!  She rocks!  Hi Josie! 🙂

-T is the best and took me to my favorite restaurant, The Spotted Pig, for lunch on Saturday after my 20 miler.  SWOON.

We both ate a delicious burger smothered in gorgonzola.  I also had the best mulled wine of my LIFE!  Salivating just thinking about it...

We both ate a delicious burger smothered in Roquefort cheese. I also had the best mulled wine of my LIFE! Salivating just thinking about it all…

-I ran the Join the Voices 5-miler in Central Park on 12/2.  My time was 37:11.  It was a PR, ’cause I don’t think I’ve ever raced a 5 miler before.  I was also slightly hung over.  Score.

No pics of me in motion at this race for some reason, but I swear I ran it...

No pics of me in motion at this race for some reason, but I swear I ran it…

-I SERIOUSLY SUCK at dressing for winter running.  In the picture above, for instance, I was sweating balls.  However, while I was waiting to run and as soon as I was finished running, I was FREEZING.  Good thing my race is in Miami.  I think I can count on sweating balls for its entirety…

What do you all wear for winter runs?  What do you do when you get all Uncle Frank inside your head?

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7 Responses to “8:00 and “I Can’t””

  1. Kristy December 13, 2012 at 5:50 pm #

    i totally know what you mean about getting in your head with GMP. the closer i head to 8:00s, the more freaked out i get. i had a couple of so-so GMP runs the week leading up to RBM. i was terrified of running mile 1 of the marathon and feeling winded. turns out, it was all in my head. as soon as i started running last saturday, it felt easy and “normal”. so IT IS all in your head. you CAN totally do this.

    good luck on the 22-miler!!

    • Katie December 14, 2012 at 10:47 am #

      Thanks, Kristy! Somehow, I knew my running twin would get it. 😉

  2. sweatykid December 14, 2012 at 8:04 am #

    Oh yes, I sooo get this MGP intimidation. I think part of it is trusting that
    A. you can run that pace because you’ve run an entire marathon in that ballpark before (off less training, it sounds like), and
    B. if you are consistently putting in the training, this will all kind of “magically” come together on race day even if it doesn’t feel perfect now.

    Negative thoughts = good brain training opportunities, right? I am excited to follow along with your training. Good luck on the 22 today!!

    • Katie December 14, 2012 at 10:52 am #

      Thanks, SK! It does kind of all come together “magically” in the end, right? Good points– they def help!

  3. Kelly December 16, 2012 at 8:54 am #

    Tragedy: I have not yet watched Home Alone this year. AH! And now I can’t get Uncle Frank’s voice out of my head, haha. Dressing for winter I usually do less is more kind of thing, except I always wear at least one pair of gloves because my hands get so cold! It’s been shorts weather still lately, which is confusing!

    I think you can go it – never underestimate how differently you feel on race day! You can definitely do it!

  4. runningseal December 17, 2012 at 7:35 pm #

    Ahhh catching up on blogs!! We should run together sometime! If you will run at night with me. Nights are so lonely :/ Miami should be fun…I know a on of people doing it, but it is just too hot for me without time to acclimate 😦

  5. Alli December 18, 2012 at 8:54 pm #

    Thank you for not only quoting uncle frank, but including the picture! ‘If Uncle Frank says no, then it must be really bad!”

    When he gets in your head, you just have to answer back like Kevin! XOXO

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